getting in the way...

Good people of the internet, my whole being is weary. Body, mine, spirit, chakra, atman, soul, whatever... All of it is tired. I think a lot of this has to do with me going to summer school. Let me tell you, it's cool but at the same time and it's a pain in the butt. If I wasn't chasing the carrot-on-a-stick of a college degree to be had in a few short weeks, I would not be putting myself through all of this craziness. In addition to all of this, the career is humming right along. I'm getting calls and booking dates left and right to be someone's drummer, bassist, engineer, or recordist. (As I write this, I wonder why Id even consider taking pity on my fabulous life...)

Here's my point. Amidst all of this great stuff I don't feel settled. My foundation feels shaky like I could drop a ball and the world would come crashing down on me. In an effort to get my act together I was willing to sacrifice probably the greatest gift Ive been granted in a while. I'll keep that between the gift giver and I but let's just say john Locke would consider it something for which dying would not be out the question. (Can you tell Ive been getting educated?) I had resolved to give this gift away and attempted to do so even though Id had reservations the whole time. Last night, I realized that my methodology was flawed and I need to really look elsewhere for the solution to my problem.

Now I find myself in a new limbo. Something so perfect for me and I my meddling in the master's plan may have inadvertently affected the outcome of things. When I set down to write this blog, I was thinking what I would bring to the table and the Jill Scott's tune Gettin' In the Way came to mind. If you aren't familiar, the song is a about a woman try to enjoy a relationship with her beau while his ex is trying to stay in the picture. The chorus says "you're gettin' in the way of what Im feelin." I know now by the way I felt during this whole ordeal that I was getting in the way. It seems as though this is a common problem that a lot of people face. Good people of the internet, I implore you. GET OUT OF THE WAY! Your problems and issues are miniscule compared to whats in the works. Let God do his thing (if you don't believe in Him, let the powers that be do there thing...) What happened to me is a loss of faith and panic. Dont let it happen to you. The fix may not be as easy or immediate. Thanks for reading.


-Truth. Putting the pieces back together, more slowly, more patiently.

Things that make you go.... WHOA!

Okay a lil update. For those of you that don't know, I recently joined Philadelphia Slick, a hip hop band with my best friend Marc Kaplan at the helm. Up until tonight, no one outside the band has heard me play drums with the ensemble. Tonight, we hit the stage together for the first time. The room was tiny and packed with hip hoppy, college kids... Just the way we like it. We clicked off the first tune and then away we went. frome start to finish, we killed. Strong, phat, and hot.

Tomorrow, we head to the Theater of the Living Arts here in philly for the next phase of Emergenza, a battle of the band like nothing i've ever seen. If we succeed at winning the crowd over, we'll move on to NYC. If we bring it there, It's off to germany. yikes.

That last part of the story was really just background info for what i'm about to share.

After the show, i went to wawa (one of my favorite places). After I came out I noticed a middle aged couple in the street holding hands and gazing in each others eyes. I got in the car to leave and noticed that the gaze had become an embrace and a kiss. Deep kiss. he starts feeling her up. backs her up against a car. hand down her pants... after that i pulled off...

At first these love birds made me smile and think about my own main squeeze, stephanie. But as their actions escalated i became a little alarmed. I mean i'm all for being touchy feeling with the one you love and all that. And don't get me wrong there's nothing wrong with a lil PDA to announce to the world to whom you belong. But then when you annouce to the world that you're 3 minutes from gettin' it on behind some Penn student's honda civic, that's another issue. Good grief. And then i thought to myself the guys have probably knocked back a few at the bar and are on the way to catch a cab or the local sheraton. It was kinda of later too. we're talking like after 1 am. maybe it wasn't so bad. It's not like anything got exposed... I think.

I guess from their prespective it'd be kind of exciting to be so openly passionate in a public place. They may not have even noticed they were being watched. After pondering all of these things, i found myself pulling away from the wawa with a smirk on my face thinking "you go 'head and work that out, partner." Sometimes you can just tell when something's about to go down. My man and his lady were about to GIT BIZZY. I can't be mad at them about that. I just hope they do so responsibly. That goes for all of you kids gittin' bizzy. This concludes the public service portion of this blog. Good people of the internet, you all be good. Thanks for reading.

-truth

PS: GET A ROOM!!!